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16 ; HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIR ;D

2010-01-08T07:21:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MY LIL' BRO ! (:

heh , & i love you brother ! :D
even though i hate you sometimes .
and we fight alot but you still love me .
and i also love you lahh , & thank you for ..
all the things that you've done , blahblahblah . (:

oh & today is a very happy day .
cos i finally get to talk to MR. GRUMPY .
heh , i miss you lahh bacen & you miss me too . (:
not only that , i'm happy cos i recieved $50 commision today .
usually it's $20 but it increased , cos i worked " overtime " .
and i love my terrific awesome boss because of that .
aww , i know i'm super sweet to have said that .
alright , goodnight semua , i want to talk :D

15 ; i keep forgetting to forget about you .

2010-01-06T05:54:00.000-08:00

don't mind me posting again but i just feel so ' empty ' .
very wierd word to use but i don't care , i just feel that way .

i miss you ; ♥
i miss texting you .
i miss all your threats .
i miss hanging up on you .
i miss your very angry voice .
i miss complaining about you ..
i miss picking up late night calls .
i miss msn / webcam - ing with you .
i miss your name appearing on my phone .
i miss everything about you , MR. GRUMPY .

maybe it's my fault for not contacting you but what am i suppose to do , i have NOOOOOOOOOOO phone . & i don't know when that phone is coming back . probably a few fucking months later .

sometimes i feel like forgetting about you , but i can't . & idk why . maybe you've forgotten about me so i think you should tell me . baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabi lahh . kayy , bye . i want go Farah house already . GOOD NIGHT .

14 ; school sucks .

2010-01-06T04:23:00.000-08:00

NOKIA E71 ! (:
hahaha , mum promise to get me this .
if i finally pass my exams and at least one A .
so that means , this year deanna kena work hard .

FIRST 3 DAYS OF SCHOOL , SUCKISH AT FIRST BUT GREAT AT THE END .

i've been doing the same stuffs . go school , then go home straight , shower & meet cousins . school is very boring cos the timing is waaay too long and so is my house , bising naak mampos . hanging out with Farah & Syawal & Ain more better . TOP FAVOURITE COUSINS ! (: can relax and enjoooooy :D ooh , and the books are too heavy , i think my shoulders gonna break soon . hate those books , i want a locker , FAST .

and i have been going home late too , around 2 am . but mum never minds cos i'm only hanging out with cousins . heh , i guess these are the advantages of not having a phone , cos mum won't call to check on me once i don't reach home at the usual timing :D

but maybe i should go home early cos i'm starting to feel sleepy in school . and that sucks cos that means i have no energy . but no matter how hard i try to sleep , i can't , i only get tired around 3 in the morning , which means i only sleep for 2 hours . cos i wake up at 5.30 . DIEEEEEEEEEEEE .

ooh , and today was just freaking embarassing . it was hazwani's birthday today . very paiseyh leh cos i forgot her birthday . i keep confusing her date with my relative's one . AIYO . so then i bloody fucking embarassed to talk to her :( so just keep my mouth shut . sorry hazwani . telupe tuu satu hal but i owe her 3 years of birthday presents , in fact , not only her , other people too . i think i should stop wasting money on myself and start buying other people their presents instead .

13 ; HAPPY NEW YEAR !

2010-01-01T07:01:00.000-08:00

GOODBYE 2009
HELLO 2010.

woooooooooah , time flies .
VERYVERY FAST .

kejam - kelip , kejam - kelip , dah new year .
heh , celebrating new year was fun :D
waaaaaaay better than last year .. i wonder what's in store for me this year ..

well , firstly , watched fireworks with family and other relatives .
waah , very pack like crazy but in the end , we found a spot . (:
view was awesome , if only i had a phone to capture it all ..
we decided to go west coast to watch more fireworks !
but by the time we got there , finish already leh .
so just play - play , chill - chill , until 2 plus .
after that , mum sent me to dad's place .
cos step - brother organised a small party .
i was feeling very tired and sleepy but what to do ?sedare dah jemput , tak kan naak cakap malas pulak .
dad & step - mum wasn't there which means freedom !
so there was only me , step - bro & cousins i never knew i had .
celebrated like crazy , very the kecoh , especially the older cousins .
drink and smoke like crazy until they became crazy people .
i swear it was scary being near them so i had to keep a distance .
then around 7 in the morning , mum fetched me and it was home sweet home . (:
sleep for like the whole day until 5 in the afternoon , and it was heavenly .
no one forced me to wake up , and there was NO nagging .

i really thought that this year was going to suck because i had no phone .
but nope , it wasn't that bad cos i had a great time with my family .
never thought i'd be this close with my mum & others .
guess this holidays was a break from friends .
but i still MISS & LOVE you all peeps ! (:
well , happy new year everyone :D

12 ; i feel like -.-

2009-12-27T09:09:00.000-08:00

i feel like swinging myself to happiness .

why ? because deanna is very upset . i feel so very sick . & i feel very hungry but i'm just to lazy to open my mouth & chew . i think i need a shoulder to cry on . so fucking weak . & i need your shoulder . YES YOU , MR. GRUMPY ! i miss you like so much . & i hate you for not caring . and when i get my phone back tomorrow , you're gonna be angry again because i didn't contact you all this while . then you're gonna be raising your voice on the phone and i'll be very very scared .

& there are other reasons why i'm sad . because there are tons of homework ! fuck . how am i suppose to do two book reviews in one week ? and other english worksheets . i feel like paying someone to do it for me :D

one more reason is that , secondary three is going to be HELL . why ? because i suck in my studies . & that means i have to buck up real badly to pass . & if i don't , habes uh , kena retain :( dah nanti taak leh grauduate ngan kawan - kawan .

the other reason is because i have to go to school tomorrow . to buy books , SHIT . i thought dad was gonna buy it for me . but turns out , he only gave me the money and asked me to buy it myself . aper punyaa bapak . anak sendiri pon tak nak belikan . tapi biler part anak tiri , mak ai , kene expel pon kau sebok pusing satu singapore carik skola untuk dier . that guy doesn't want to go to school anymore , he wants to WORK . why do old people never get it ? he even told me face to face , loseeeeeeeeeeeeeeer .

11 ; i hate falling sick .

2009-12-25T06:50:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS ! (:
to everyone .

ooh , today suppose to go to wayne's christmas party .
but unfortunately , i fell sick , so very sorry leh ..
that i couldn't make it , body very hot liao .
taboulleh tahan & to didi , sorry ye ?
that you had to go alone :'(
i'll make it up to you .
after i get well :D

i wonder why i keep falling sick . maybe cos i've not been drinking much water . or maybe cos i keep waking up late & missing meals . urgh , this just sucks . & holidays are coming to an end :'( I HAVEN'T STARTED ON HOMEWORK YET . damn , i'm so dead . i hope i get to complete it in time .

10 ; i hate having short nails .

2009-12-21T05:55:00.000-08:00

pineapple tarts with my name on it ;D

hahaha , okayy , i have absolutely no life , i know .
but it was fun making em' , with grandma's help . (:

ooh , gosh , today was ROT AT HOME DAY .
was suppose to follow zana go clementi , but i didn't ..

& i have four good reasons why . (:
1. my nails are too short to get a manicure .
2. i do not want a pedicure .
3. she wants to go lepak after that & i don't lepak .
4. i am laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy , heh .

& i have finally send my phone for repair , getting it back on sunday .
YAY ! (: omg , why can't mum just buy me a new one ?

i can pay half the bill , or maybe just a quarter . (:

aiyoyoyoyoyo , now i feel like going out leh ..

maen kat playground ngan semue orang .

hahaha , i miss playing ninja warriors .

very childish , i know but heck uh .

we just love that game ;D

9 ; dominic oh dominic .

2009-12-18T01:43:00.000-08:00

fruity bubbles ;D

been awhile since i've updated this blog .

urgh , handphone rosak :(
cannot message people but luckily ..
lil' bro let me borrow his stupid .
& very useless spare phone .
well , thanks ehys :D

i miss MR. GRUMPY :(
i wonder if you miss me too .

i need dominic .
i know you need me too :P
hahaha , bodoh . sepak muke kau .
waah , i still waiting for you to go online lahh .
i need to talk to you badly lahh , alamaaak .
hahaha , lembap punya budak setan .
check - check tengah mabok ehy .
eeeee , aku benci kau lahh .

8 ; uncle joe .

2009-12-09T23:09:00.000-08:00

last saturday & sunday was awesome .
2 days & 1 night at east coast park .
i want more bbq outings ! (:
pleaaaaaaaaase mum .

i've been wondering , the people we look up to may use to be worst example ever . it can be disappointing but no matter what , we still try to forgive & forget . since daddy was gone , you were the one who was always there . you were my father figure / brother / best friend . you were the one that i trusted the most , & i still do now . you messed up your life before but everyone messes up sometimes . you regretted everything that happened in your past & now , you try to fix all of 'em & change for the better .

people look at you & say that you're one of typical guys who always make their family name look bad . i say to all of you people , FUCK YOU . get a life & stop talking about other people . cos i know my uncle more than you do and i say , you don't have the right to say all those hurtful things cos you sure as hell don't know my real uncle . i'm not trying to act like some big fuck here but sometimes , it's embarassing and kinda irritating . imagine , you're walking or waiting in the line or whatever with that person . & some few people stare , whisper or either talk about that person . and then suddenly they say the same mean things about you just because you're with that person . ooh , big fuck . what does it matter to you people anyway . how about you try being in his shoes . let's see if you can handle it & fix EVERYTHING . let's see you feel the pain . how about that assholes . and this goes out to the people who gossiped about me & my uncle .

oh , & i so so so so need to express my anger now . FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU . and that's for you MR . SECURITY GUARD . just because you have the authority , doesn't mean you can't let me go for my dentist appointment . like c'mon , just because my uncle & you were enemies , doesn't mean you have to bad mouth me & chase me out of the building . stop being childish . dentist appointment aku tkde kene mengene ngan problem kau ngan pakcik aku lahh , BODOH . oh wait , i already told you that . can't believe you won't move one , gosh . people nowadays , dah brape tahun pon maseh naak musuh . get a life .

alright , i guess i'm done . (:
i'm happy & i'm going to
blow some bubbles ;D

BYEE ! (:

7 ; i ♥ reptiles .

2009-11-30T23:45:00.000-08:00

that's us smelling like crap before we shower .
& i am not sure why he's licking my shirt .

now , that's how iggy looks like after a good & cold shower .
and those green stuff is his food which he has already finished by now . (:

GOSH .ain't that iguana cute ?reptile lovers would totally agree . (:& to fai , I TOLD YOU I HAD AN IGUANA !don't believe right ? see for yourself :Poh and today got class bbq but ..due to rain , no bbq leh :(buang mase jer .
OMG !i hate my phone .message also problem .speaker also got problem .this phone damn bitch lahh .few months only got problem .i need to send it for repair .NOW NOW NOW .

6 ; i need strepsils .

2009-11-29T23:28:00.000-08:00

fun times with cousins , omg .

hahaha , now i'm sick ..
veryveryvery sick & weak .
yesterday cough like non - stop .
shit sia , now cannot go out play bicycle .

so now , i'm stuck at home .
waiting for my cough to get better .
dah lahh handphone rosak , waah , sian uh .
&& , i wanna apologise to a few people out there .

to my blog readers ;
hahaha , sorry never update , i really no time leh .
especially to that very setie blog reader , ( insertname ) .
i know you visit this blog like every day , don't know for what also .

to friends who ajak me out today ;
sorry people , i very sick leh , taak larat naak kayuh .
check - check nanti , tengah jalan dah macam naak mati .

5 ; fuck you bastard .

2009-11-18T08:35:00.000-08:00

i'm so pissed , i swear i fucking am . firstly , i don't know who you fucking thing you are . bloody hell , you think you fucking awesome rich i wanna sleep with you . go die lahh motherfucker . i ain't some fucking cheap girl you think i am . i've got dignity you son of a bitch . & i hope you're reading this cos i want you too . even though i've already fucking scolded you , i still wanna curse you fucking big time on the net cos you deserve it . you want to fuck right . go post your fucking picture online . comfirm pompuan call kau . muke kau banyak cantik per . chibai . & you know what , because of people like you , that's why we have middle finger . bastard .

4 ; happy birthday dude ;D

2009-11-17T04:09:00.000-08:00

THAT BLUE BMX ! (:

I WANT THAT ! I WANT THAT !
hahaha , didi promised to get me that ;D
& you better do , cos if not , i'll rip your head off .

17 November ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIDIIIIIIII ;D

So today , didi ajak cycling so i went cos at home also nothing do mah . so then we cycled ALL THE WAAAY to yew tee . called arina up cos we wanted to chill at her crib but she was out with her boyfriend , HAPPY 5 MONTH ANNIVERSARY by the way . we headed to bukit batok back & chilled at mac . his friend gave us free mcflurry , YUMYUM . talktalk . we thought of going fishing but .. NO ROD -.- then i came up with an idea * kening naik naik * .

I WANTED A RACE . we started from little guilin & the finishing point was suppose to be at my house , jengjengjeng . he was leading . but something bad happened , crap . he was cycling damn fast so that he could catch the green man . then it turned red & so he stopped pedalling and pressed the brakes & his stupid bicycle became fucking out of control . so he fell to the front . thank goodness he fell on the freaking pavement uh . i saw passerbys , walao , i thought they wanna help but they just look & freaking walk away . when i cycled across already , he was up . i was feeling bloody weak all over cos i saw blood . his left arm nyer skin was like ter - exposed . including his left elbow & knee . masya'allah , i like want fucking vomit sia . i kept saying , ' kau okay , kau okay ? ' then when he finally looked at me , he was like , ' muke rilek uh , gi toilet kat mac uh ' . so when we reach there , i quickly go take tissue & he go wash his wounds . DISGUSTING . the bleeding won't stop so i went 7 - ELEVEN to get plasters . then i taped it all over his wound , it hurt cos he kept saying , ' kimak ' repeatedly .

After that , we decided to call it a day & so we walked with our bicyles . reached my house first , so said goodbye . (: hahaha , hope you're doing just fine dude . i guess that was your worst birthday ever . EXTREMELY SORRY MAN . didn't knew that was gonna happen . take caaaare ~

& i'm missing someone ;(

3 ; that quote (:

2009-11-12T07:02:00.000-08:00

i'm selfish , impatient and a little insecure , i make mistakes , i'm outta control , and at times , a little hard to handle , but if you can't handle me at my worse ..
then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best .

- marilyn monroe

OMG , i totally agree to this , mwuahahaha .
i know you people do too , don't lie .
especially girls , i guess .

& maybe boys too .

but whatever .

gosh , i'm so missing fai . (:

where you lahh bacen ?

2 ; i don't need a job .

2009-11-09T01:09:00.000-08:00

oooh , gosh , i miss these girls . (:

hope to get to meet you up soon .

& anyways , can someone take me out ? (:

i figured out , working ain't fun , it takes up alot of fucking energy .

& you don't get paid that much , one day , get less than 20 bucks .

sian uh , now that's why i want to enjoy life , starting from now .

& today was day one .

morning , wake up & go breakfast with atikah & izwan . (:

we go eat roti prata at bukit batok , fuyo , sedaap .

then suppose to go school but nahh , very lazy .

so went home & sleep & suddenly .

BIG SHOCK !

guess whaat ?

my mum started shouting cos the teacher called .

waah , that mrs ang like no life call people's mother .

& she's still nagging , NOW , wonder when she'll sleep .

cos that would be awesome ;D

1 ; i need a job .

2009-11-02T05:09:00.000-08:00

I NEED A JOB , SO FUCKING BADLY .

if you have any recommendations , please tell me . (: